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2010-06-15T17:56:00.001+08:00

PAMGUIN HATES ME

2006-09-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

west zone colours

award presentation was held at HCI. everyone looked good and smart that day. i'm definitely thankful for the fact that the school doesn't have the oh-so-creative school logo on the blazers. hahaha. i'm pretty sure everyone agrees with me.

there were 9 individual awardees, 5 canoeists: irene sze meng fuck me, 3 ruggers: rahmad jeremy leenan and the golf girl so sorry forgot your name.

i guess everyone was quite shocked when the emcee didn't announce PJC CANOEING for the team colours award. we're on the list. apparantly what happened was that the organisers thought that our representative was not present because meng was sitting with us, instead of sitting at the team awardees section. she was like so depressed for the whole time there, as if a team mate died or something.

haha, wake up your idea man. even though you didn't go up to receive the stupid piece of cloth from the guest of honour for the team, the fact that we're receiving Team Colours doesn't change. moreover, like what i'd told you hell number of times that day, IT'S NOT ABOUT THE PAPER OR CLOTH OF WHAT HAVE YOU'S! IT'S ABOUT THE MOMENT. i hope you have recovered from that trauma, seriously.

this is the first time ever in PJ history that PJ is awarded TEAM COLOURS. PJC CANOEING TEAM. definitely it sounds good enough? we broke the NJ-HC-RJ-AC trend. sounds even better right?
together with many many other events can clearly show how much MENG loves the team. it's totally hardcore looking at her. our juniors ought to learn to LOVE. not just the zhixiong-jeslin kind but yea, the 05team-pjcanoeing kind.

i'm glad that everyone (seniors) love the team so much, to such an extent. so if you haven't, better start reflecting and start finding reasons to. i'm sure meng's inspiring enough. if i were a junior, i would probably want to be like her.

love is what that makes us human. it's just so amazing that love is the basis of life. we ought to learn to love. by the way i'm not talking about that kind of love for your hot chicks or your cute guys, you get what i mean (:

13 OCT would be the Achievers' Night (meng please take note). mrs tan is so nice to throw a dinner at some hotel for those who sweated/teared/shed blood for TEAM PJC. the sports that did well (canoeing, rugby..) are those which the retired nice principal of ours, the father of PJC (please sense the sarcasm please please), wanted to close down. i hope he is more SUPLISED at the results than the lurking COCOJES in the canteen.

20 OCT, meng irene fucko me will going don't-know-where for National Colours. till then, thanks for reading and good luck for promos/a levels/whatever.

2006-09-22T02:33:00.000+08:00

thank you thank you thank you

reading meng's latest entry:

eh tis entry not to praise them la.. haha no la jk jk but jus that i realli admire their spirit if i can vote

best race i have ever seen: zl n kt k2 1000
most inspiring race: zl n kt marathon race ncc

whoaa. haha, wow so i guess its worth mentioning. but then again, why isn't the best race your own race.

for me, the best race is, 4x400m meng's race. when janet barely smell you, you started bursting at 100m mark. that was LOL and my classmates were thinking that you were siao. HAHAHAHAHAHH. can still hear other people "eh wtf, who's that who's that?!"

ok then for canoeing, in my opinion, anyone who raced under pjcanoeing team are the best races.

why most inspiring not your ubin marathon? haha, sank the boat without knowing it. first time hear people say "eh don't twist liao. use biceps!" but in the end still caught up. so gd job there.

last paper tmr!!!! yeaa hahaha. now be goneeee be gonneeee..

2006-09-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

The Dash

thedashmovie.com/

life: to live to love.

for people with a screwed flash player, if you're wondering what is it about, read on.

The Dash - Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning... to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
and spoke the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive in earth
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars.. the house.. the cash..
What matters most is how we live and love..
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you will never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real...
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives...
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile...
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy is being read...
with your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say...
about how you spend your dash?

2006-07-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

2 cents. 3 cents. 4 cents
saturday marks the end of my competitive racing for now till i enter uni?
NCC is quite disappointing i can say, but the spirit in us was remarkable.

used the white stingray for both events- k2-10k and k2-1000.

!@%!@% we capped at the startline just when the horn goes. i was like WTF man?! ah nvm, i don't blame MJC guys. after all the shock and anger, we got onto the boat and started off with the K1 guys which was at least 2minutes later. for the first round our direction was like shit, going in and out of the lanes, getting sucked by other boats' washes blabla. i wanted so much to smash the hell out of this bitch with a sledge hammer. it was damn uncomfortable but i wanted even more to complete the race, as much as my partner would want. we rowed like dog and finished 4th.

don't want to comment about it anymore.

in summary, BURN THE STINGRAYS!

congrats to pjcanoeists again. well done, great year (: thank you all.

tommorrow asexual test. see you all.

rowlikeHELL

2006-07-22T20:23:00.001+08:00

WARNING...*** This entry is a bit long....

whoooaaa it seems to be the IN thing to write something on my blog. so here it is, from ailing-

Hey guys,
The last few months were super eventful. There were up and downs, happy moments and disappointments. But I’m glad that all of us made it through and emerge victoriously as champions. Every one of us. First, I would like to take this opportunity to first apologize to every single one in the team, especially the senior team. Sorry for not being very active in our outings and the disappointing training I made during June. You guys totally gave your heart and souls. Now secondly, thank you speech as usual…..

First: To MR ANG.
Mr Ang, thanks for your guidance and tolerance towards us especially me during the past one year plus. Thanks for lending me a listening ear when I’m in trouble. Thanks for pushing me hard during trainings. Finally, thanks for all your encouragement and the faith you had in us.

Second: To SHAUN (NUS)
Shaun thanks for starting us off. Thanks for your patience and commitment in teaching us when you are not obliged to. Thanks for the opportunities, advices and the care you’ve given us the past few months. You are a mentor to all of us. I really appreciate it. Thanks.

Third: To MENG, my lovely partner
No words can really describe the friendship between us. We’ve really came a long way my friend. Today’s marathon really takes me back to good old times where we started off. Struggling. Meng, I don’t think I can make it through without you, especially in K2. Thanks for lending me the listening ear when I am down. Thanks for giving me the encouragement and affirmation when I doubted myself. And thanks for taking all my bullshits. Nothing can tear us apart partner. THANKS!

Forth: To KAH TENG
Hey, I really really enjoyed my time training with you. Your nonsense never fails to brighten up our day. You really changed a lot from last year. From an insensitive captain to such a thoughtful one. Thanks for pushing me SO HARD during trainings. You play a big part in my improvement. Like what MENG said today you guys are champion no matter what. Within a short time, I witness the remarkable improvement you guys made. The thirst for success really inspired me. Thanks for everything my friend.

Fifth: To ZHAN LI

• like to thank you for putting up this entry for me on your blog*

Zhan li, you are more than a friend to me. More like a brother, someone who guided me along, someone who inspires me and reminded me about important aims in life. Thanks for your understanding and believing in me. I remembered during one of the trainings in June, you told me “You can be a master of your mind instead of your mind being your master.” This phrase really stay deep rooted in my mind and pushes me on in whatever I do. Thanks for being such an inspiration to me.

Sixth: To LEONARD

Thanks for listening to me when I was down. When I was on the verge of quitting, you really reminded me about what I want in life especially when I felt that I couldn’t balance my studies and my cca. Thanks for giving me your opinion about my stroke. You really play a big part in my life. No words can really describe how much I appreciated and respected you.

*you know it in your heart can already*

SEVENTH: SZE EE
Hey thanks for being my partner. Really enjoyed myself with you, the gossips, the chit chat sessions, the sweat and the tears. Thanks for everything babe. You really pushed yourself very hard. You will certainly do well in k1. But now, hope that you also put more attention in your studies, I can’t stress how important that is.

EIGHTH: ZHI HAO (put you at 8th doesn’t mean that you don’t mean a lot to me okay.)

Hey COACH, *happy? I acknowledge you as a coach already…* anyway, you really taught me a lot in the past few months and pushing me really hard. Especially during the national schools. Sorry that I disappointed you when I decided to take K2. But whatever it is, you really put in your hard work coaching us. Although you keep saying my stroke very ugly, I’m weak, whatever…. Still want to thank you…

(See I’m nice okay. Better treat me one day)

Finally, to Belle, Xiao Hui, Amanda, Lesley, Jeremy, Jian Sheng, Dorm, Wen Yang

Thanks for all of your encouragements. You guys really made training more fun and made me work very hard to what I have today.

Belle, really thank you for advices you given me
Xiao Hui, really enjoyed the challenge you gave me and the gossip session =)
Amanda, your really gave me a lot of challenge compared to any other people.
Lesley, really enjoyed your company
Jeremy, thanks for making me believe that I have a chance of making it to medicine. I will study super hard.
Jian sheng, STOP calling me ah lian lor…
Dorm, thanks for all the chocolates and understanding.
Wen yang, thanks for helping us take photos.

Like to end off with this:

My Hero
You may not consider yourself,
But you may very well be
A leader, a winner,
For all the world to see.

In the eyes of others,
You are a martyr.
You have received recognition,
And you have worked harder.

But why ? Why all the praise?
I have done nothing but kept my word,
To a dear friend who needed me,
In every incidence that occurred.

But friend, I tell you, you are a hero.
You helped me see the light.
When I had no eyes,
You saved me, and you were my sight.

LOVE, AILING.

2006-07-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

this is from ongmengyean soooooooooo READDD (:

YAWNNNN, the title says it all. so here it is:

Hey zl help mi post this up k..thnks got free time nw so write alot
First the thank you list :
Zhanli- zl u alwaes sae I sae u all hai mi..nw I wana sae.."thnks for hai-ing mi" .. I realli appreciate that. I will alwaes rmb the day when I jus started out on a tiger k1 then haf to go for the marathon training then zl it was u who insisted that I took the raptor to use and u use tiger, it was u who made mi learn how to balance on a raptor. Thanks, if its nt for u, I wld not have to managed to balance, u gave mi the chance to use even though u need to use it n use tiger yaself.. u make mi wad I am 2dae thnks.. and also thnks for telling mi my strokes where got wrong like punching arms too high and leaning too forward I will alwaes rmb that thnks…I will alwaes rmb ya "dun be STUU-PID la" and the duno wad..duno wad sign the one u alwaes do one two fingers point at ya opponent wan.. hahax…thanks for forming up the small team also n giving mi all the guidance I need to be captain.. its wasn't easy being one.. but u alwaes help mi in every wae.. reminding mi wad I have not done.. thnks coconut head….

Leonard- And leo u alwaes find out why I pms on sum daes.. u noe I feel demoralised n alwaes encourage mi when I feel esp down during trainings… I still rmb the time when u ask mi to tell u why I "lian hei hei" on that dae I alwaes nv sae it out but u alwaes noe that I feel demoralised. It was u who reminded mi alwaes to train hard n not to slack n not to be scared during coms. Thnks a lot….i wld nt b able to pick up myself after every training if not for u thnks…. Thnks…muscle man…. Hahax…

Kahteng- Guy captain and the one who alwaes.. nv fail to smile everydae.. the daes that I have training wif u u nv fail to brighten up our daes n alwaes act stupid :P jkjk.. hahax… eh thnks a lot for being thru wif mi and also holding on strong to the team when the sch wans to close down our ccas.. u r a great captain n teammate n also alwaes.. telling us ya new invention like stokes muz how how how then more efficient … Thnks….u make mi learn more things abt the hahax…canoeing world when last time all I know was our tigers our white stingray k2s.u told mi wad was an ak n nelo hahax.. kahteng dat dae u ask mi whether I believed in u all will win yes I believe n I realli admire u all.. fighting jus for the team.. I feel that my race is nthing compared to u all.. ya courage n determination is realli great.. I think I will not have been able to tell myself that I can win if I didn’t come in 1st in my semis..

Irene- thnks for being my k2 partner.. even though I not a gd back rower alwaes cant follow n like to do my own strokes.. thnks… I feel most comfortable rowing wif u… hahax like that kind dun need to realli tok n realli train 2gther but still can make it that kind not that we very fast la.. but it's the feel n we alwaes have the same goal in mind haha.. thnks… still rmb that time during acc time trials.. I nv tot we could make it I jus tot of piaing wif u n nthing else… n we got in!! n also rd ubin kayak marathon n …. Coms.. it was u who continue rowing so I cant stop…. Thnks…  thnks 4 being a gd sprinting companion also… I have learned a lot of new knowledge frm u also…. Hahax…

Mr ang- thnks for being our best teacher in charge paying for most of our things quietly.. sry sry… we shld haf burned quite a big hole in ya pocket rt? And not giving up on the team when the sch wans up to close down n also being wif us thru thick n thin.. mr ang thnks.. I will promise to wear the cap u gime one dae k… THANK U MR ANG

Shaun- thnks for helping the team when it was our darkest moments… u taught us how to twist n how to row properly when last time we onli like use our hands to row… thnks… the effort n time u put in realli helped bring our team bk to place… thnks a lot if nt for u the team wld have closed down.. I still rmb the time u sit ard at the pavilion n tell us do 10km correcting our strokes.and giving us the pyramid prgrammes and ans to our enquires. it was u who made mi carry my own boat that I know how to do it now.. n helping mi empty water n also pushing me and constantly encouraging mi when I dun seem to get any faster. THNKS!

Zhihao- thnks for being a wonderful coach ya harsh training prog realli made us push a lot.. esp the circuits and the 12*500 8*1000 that kind… thnks a lot.. and alwaes haf to ans my stupid qs like cant catch water blabla thnks a lot…thks for helping mi repair my boat n tape my paddle that i m blessed to come in first thnks…..

The juniors- thnks for pushing mi when I doing my circuits.. hahax.. u all sae I also chao pia.. actualli is I cant allow myself to slow down becox.. of u all.. even though I alwaes scold u all but I wana give u all a award "MOST IMPROVED" hahax…

The rest wanyan n nadia n limin for alwaes listening to mi nag abt my problems…haix.. now com finally over le..hahax.. actualli b4 the com even though its hard hafing to train twice a dae with studying in bw but will nv forget how we alwaes slp at coffee bean and the haha crabs at j8… I was counting down on the daes that we haf left. As we get closer n better prepared to go for the com, I realised that we realli have nt much time left and the last dae of the race, our final dae 2gther as a team... nw when I go down for training sumtimes will feel quite lost when dun c e whole team training hahax..last time I used to wana faster finish marathon training so that can faster go hme wif u all . we have reali progressed a lot… at first, I was telling wanyan lyke after our team become small, like very awkward to train wif almost all guys… wif onli two gals mi n irene… but it realli got better, I realli nv expected can joke n talk normally wif u all during training cox.. I haf alwaes hang ard wif girl friends but u all alwaes take gd care of mi thnks a lot… n treating mi like ya own sister okie okie brother… thnks kt n leo for buying mi my bdae cake sry that I scolded u all haahx… thnks for helping mi in every area in every aspect that I feel that I m the most blessed n fortunate canoeist… it's "becox of u " that made mi wad I m 2dae. Thankews..:)

Meng, the gorilla

2006-07-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

IMPORTANT

yeah, anyone who has teamphotos/event photos of us please send it to me. in case you don't have my email, please add me at zhanli__@hotmail.com thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!! especially AILING CHUAAAAAAA. i haven't receive any from youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

yes i'm not gonna blog about meng and sammy. getting boring. ahahha. YA AND, you pjcanoeing clowns better go STUDY NOW.

2006-07-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

enlightened

before you read, i would like to apologise if i made it seem that i don't give a shit about medals. i do obviously. i'm happy that i've got my gold but it is not as superficial as what one may think. i'm not trying to be arrogant or haolian, i'm only giving my views.

so as i was saying, i just realised something. i've finally understood. it is not all about winning, not all about your gold or silver. the bitter part is the process but the sweetest part is not your medal. it is the PROCESS. i've gotten my gold and i realised that there's no big deal. serious. i'm not trying to act or what, i thought the ecstastic feeling would last longer but it didn't. what truly makes you happy, i guess, is winning for yourself, your team or for your school (doesn't apply to me though).

many fail to realise this point because they view winning as something far more important than anything else. and perhaps when you put in alot of effort in training and you lost your race, you will feel that the world is crushing down on you. that was how i felt last year when i got knocked out in HEATS for national schools. after the race, i was hanging between the decisions to either step down with the rest of the team or to continue canoeing.

i chose the latter in the end.

just feb, our k2 got silver in national kayak marathon. the feeling didn't last too long as well. i thought perhaps it was because i didn't get a gold. so what's the big deal about the gold now?

there was a gathering with the 04/05 senior team yesterday. had a little talk with euan. he too thought along the same line as me. when he got a bronze, he asked himself why didn't he pull faster harder to fight for silver or gold. then he realised that the medal he received was just a bonus.

it is for the team, for the ones who trained and fought so hard alongside with you. i know you will feel very demoralised very broken very empty when you didn't make it. now listen, every single one of the team appreciates your efforts. by training so hard and giving your best in the race, you've already done your part for us. because we're one team.

training together for a common cause is great. winning for the same reason is even greater.

guys, there's always another chance to get your medal(s) again. now that everything's over. sit down and look back. feel good because we did it, for you and me. even though canoeing is a more or less individual sport, we're training in a team, for the team. i believe such spirit is the best part of everything.

blood, sweat and tears.

2006-07-15T09:57:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL SCHOOLS CHAMPS

OMG......... we did it! we ended our last national schools champs with a BANG.

i'm very proud to say that we came back with 5 gold medals in 3 events and an overall FIRST RUNNER-UP team medal (girls) and a TEAM SINGAPORE BEST PERFORMER award (Most Valuable Athelete).

first event was k2-1000m girls. xiaoting and dorcas were the only JUNIOR boat in that race and they raced strong to get a 5th. THAT'S DAMN GOOOOOOD.

next was my event, k2-1000m guys. even though we got first in our heats and 2nd in semis (losing to NJC), we came in FIRST in finals. we began to take the lead during the 2nd part of the race. we pulled like hell for every single stroke. by the last six buoys (150m), i was already feeling high about my gold. the feeling of crossing the line first was really undescribable. all i saw was fuckoteng shouting like mad in front, as well as the esctatic team mates together with mr ang cheering like mad on the land.

shagged

joy

as we paddled towards the pontoon to get our boat weighed, i saw mr ang and leonard congratulating us from far. i felt very relieved because i thought we did it for the team, particularly leonard. my gold is not just mine, it is for everyone's hardwork and sacrifice.

soohui's race-

acting cute

she got 4th, around 1 second after the 3rd crossed the line. very gooooooooooooooddd

MENGYEAN.
er.. as usual...

K2-500m girls- irene and sze ee
another GOLD for us.

HCI girls banged into them and causing them to cap. tsktsktsk.

this is the last inter-school race for all jcs' canoeists before they step down to study for A's. i'm glad i ended it in the right way, in the way i wanted.

wanna thank alot of people. i owe my success to every single one around me. i'm sure everyone i've listed will get to read because people around me are kaypoh hardcore blog stalkers think i don't know!?! abit gay but i'll still say it ahhahaha.

the 3 key figures:
mr kevin ang (teacher-in-charge)
zhihao (coach)
shaun (NUS)

thank you all for your guidances. we really learnt alot of things from you and without you, we wouldn't be what we are.

the senior team:
fucko my partner. thank you for releasing your essences of your powerful leg hair by stroking your legs happily in the water everytime. thank you for that poor aimming spit of yours that landed in the boat and which eventually flowed to the back part of boat where i am. haha, ok lah. thanks for being such a greaaaat partner. so fit, so muscular, and such a good pace setter. yeah we did it. one more race to go - national canoeing champs.

leonard da gay shit- thanks for feeding us with entertainment, blog king. sometimes very extreme when teasing meng. hardcore. i don't dare. lol. we've been training together for 3 years and i did learn alot from you. you mentioned about your regret for not winning anything in K2, so we won this for you. we won GOLD for you brother.

meng our sister or brother?- although dinner has always been very boring with you, we will forgive you. you're always saying that you're scared/you can't catch water/strokes inefficient/very slow/no energy during dinner time and it is quite irritating lol. we wrote so many notes to you to encourage you but you never listened to us. so what's the point huh. aiya i've said what i wanted to say in that note i gave you already. just to add on, we will never HAI you, we will only HELP you. hahahah. thanks for being such a great team mate.

ailing- hahah, your strokes look so damn nice now. i hope i don't get to see you cry anymore ya. don't get so affected by people's comments lah. you are damn good although you always pangseh us, kaopei sia. watch out hor. you better join us for whatever shit next time. your achievements are already countless in this 1.5 year. i'm sure you will do very well in the future as well.

we did it! so now let us do the last thing for the team and for ourselves: mug our asses off. with the same focus and hardwork, i'm sure good grades are within our reach.

junior team:
like what mr ang said, we have left bigger shoes for you guys to fill. you guys got a heavy responsibility so make sure you keep that in mind. just have to train hard and harder. "train hard, race easy".

i think
we just did the impossible.

k2-1000m boys- GOLD

k2-500m girls- GOLD

k1-500m girls- GOLD

TEAM SINGAPORE'S BEST PERFORMER AWARD- MOST VALUABLE ATHLETE
notice the AURA.. oh that guy beside is none other than samuel. hahahha.

now for more photos..

team 04/05: shuying, xiaowen, leonard, me.

senior team with mr shaun ho, mr ang, mr hau, mr keeeee zhihao.

1000m guys with bigmuscles and mr ang

3 gens of nanhua -_-

pjcanoeing team 05/06

look at meng. big lah big. don't show off! look we're soooo happy.

played with zhihao's nelo. coooool.

this guy, depressed after losing to me in k1-500m.

there's always a finishing so here it is, 2 photos of the captains:

2006-07-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

DAY ONE- National Schools Champs

ok so the heats and semis are over.
those who got into finals are:

mengyean (K1-500m)
irene + sze ee (K2-500m)
dorcas + xiaoting (K2-1000m)
soohui (T1-500m)
kahteng + me (K2-1000m)

i think this is our best year already. there were disappointments though. it is ok, you've done the team proud nonetheless. just that other people trained harder and so they're that bit faster. no matter what, i'm proud of you guys, especially the senior team. yes, each and everyone of you.

besides that however, there were some gentle surprises as well. i am very VERY happy for the juniors namely dorcas, xiaoting and soohui who made it to the finals. very gooooood.

in school, we stand out from the rest because we're canoeists. on water, we're special because we're pjc canoeing team. it is the things that we went through together as a team that made everything so precious. i'm so thankful to have experienced it. not everyone has the chance to. so, i'll gladly live my life with these wonderful memories you guys have given me.

tommorrow will be the very last race. i want to get a gold for the guys. everyone's fair at the start-line. may the best win.

2006-07-11T20:02:00.000+08:00

O N E
ooooohhhhhhhhhh, it's like 14hrs 40min to my race. hahah, ok as requested, here's one.

lol, er, i think the bodybuilding mag one looks nicer, right?

anyway, there's a 180deg change in mrs leong ever since her first lesson after the june break which was yesterday lah. she has stopped putting us down and has been so encouraging. not very used to it, haha. even rovin says she's very nice now. well, i guess that's a good thing. i shall try to yawn in class for the next lesson. she normally STOPS you almost instantaneously, like in 0.1s (i don't know how she ever trained to that level) with her ultimate lines- *music* cover your mouth when you yawwwwnnn. how cool is that. it sounds almost like music i swear. just ask anyone.

nowadays' been rainy, so don't let that dampen your mood. have a positive outlook in life and things will get better. life's not all about SOMETHING and it shouldn't revolve around that ONE THING. ok i sound like a DJ on some crap FM.

as i've said, tommorrow is the day. the BIG day. i believe we will make a difference in PJC history. yeahh, it will be our batch.

just do your best tommorrow guys. see ya.

2006-07-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

warning
nonono maybe i shouldn't warn at all. they must be punished.

ZIXIONG WEARS UNDERWEAR BENEATH HIS TIGHTS.. AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

can see the bloody line. soooo retarded. please don't do it anymore. look at fucko. he has learnt his lesson and he's such a fine young man now.

next, have you read the papers? oooooo PJC,acsi and some other schools were featured for starting lessons late tommorrow because of worldcup finals. crap, our lessons are pushed down 1 hr later only.. other schools = 11am. at first i thought it was so great. aiya, better than nothing. maybe tommorrow being a smart-and-casual day makes it slightly better. so that we can go school in our sleeping clothes! cool.

ah, i am still contemplating whether to watch world cup tonight or not. firstly, i might get killed if i do. secondly, i am damn tired and i will be sacrificing rest (sleep). and also, i need to sleep alottttttt so i can recover from fatigue and muscle aches FAST, so that i'll be in tip-top condition for the coming race.

let's see. FRANCE will win yeah!

2006-07-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

7 days to nationals

oh how time flies.

they drew lots today. we were told about the line-up, we'll be against TP, NJ, HC, RJ, VJ if i'm not wrong.

i'm not really bothered about the line-up. whether it's a good draw or not, we'll meet them sooner or later, in semis or in finals.

best of luck (:

oh well, only 2 more trainings for me till competition i think. cause of my math paper tommorrow and bio mcq on fri. so i can only make it for evening trainings for both days.

hey, let's just whack hard this time round. no regrets.

2006-06-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh, i pulled my right delts yesterday. can't even lift my right arm. that explains why i'm online today at this time. any injury is a nightmare to a canoeist especially when it's the intensive training period.

our new k2 came yesterday- white with black lining. let's see who will take her virginity. hahaha.

anyway i was quite shocked to see someone from some school shouting at another school to get off the lanes so that they could start their sprints. walau, be nice be humble la.

time flies. it's friday already. next monday will be the pjc canoeing training camp. kinda looking forward to it. hahaha. hopefully i'll recover by then. this will be my 3rd camp already. and each time i go with a different role and a different feeling. this time will be a 4D3N camp, then we got something new and different- dragonboat on the last day.

sometimes we must take a step back and appreciate things around us. i'm glad that i'm given a chance this holiday to train so much. we didn't even have half of the water time for the past 2 years that we have now. this is how hard we've gotta train for what we want.

it is probably quite naive for someone to say that they want the team medal when they don't even realise that they are not training enough. you think it's so easy? saying is always easy. last year, our juniors had only pathetic 2 trainings at macritchie per week. so please appreciate what we have now.

i don't know why but sometimes people won't feel the pain unless they've been through it. they will never realise how precious can things be until they've got deprived of it. we must always think in other people's shoes, so that we can understand we can appreciate.

it's my mother's birthday today. yes, i appreciate her so i'll listen to her and rest for today. and and and celebrate her birthday as well. all readers wish her happy bday hor.

thanks to all batches of team mates/juniors/seniors for pushing and driving the team.

thanks to ex-coach present coach and teacher-in-charge ex t i/c for your guidance.

thanks to all my friends.

yeah and last but not least a big thank you to my gf who's always understanding and nice, thank you so much.

much of a thanksgiving entry. i remind myself not to be a bloodsucking leech. oh and thanks for reading.

2006-05-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

another week has gone past and the GP paper tommorrow marks the end of the term which isssssssssssssssssssssssss: the start of june break (:

yeah and my full-16 episodes of jinsanshun will be ready by tonight wooohoo. it is a korean drama series in case you've got no idea what it is. hahaha, i'm so gonna watch it tommorrow after training, although i think there's quite a high chance that i'll give in to temptations and watch few episodes tonight.

gah, so glad that term's ending. school has been sooooooo boring. pjc has very few activities/events and it's very rare that we get a good and fun one. that's one reason why pjc students look so deadddd and stone all the time. low school spirit, lack of events, long school hours, minimal interaction with people outside of class/cca. i guess these are the things that make enthu people unenthu and turn already crazy people psychotic.

was flipping through Sportmag in the library yesterday. saw an article on the National Kayak Marathon 2006. ahaha, there were some photos, one in which the SRJC's buddha head was very well-taken. oops. be sure to check it out.

as competition is drawing near, the need, the desire, the hunger to win is getting stronger and stronger. one question asked during the interview for EXCO is: what do you want to achieve in the end of your 2-yr in canoeing. and that nudged me to think about mine. what do i really want?

i know i want to fight for the gold medal in the coming competition. it will be hard of course. that's why i used fight. i've got very few achievements in canoeing. national junior 2005 got 5th for k2, this yr got 5th again. thankfully i got my first ever achievement in marathon - 2nd in K2. i definitely want something in sprints and damn, july will be my last race. it is my last chance.

ULTIMATELY, at the end of 3 yrs (for me), i want the team to achieve. yes, everyone. not necessary in the form of medals. i'm sure we all want to have a team to be proud of, even if you don't win anything, you'll be proud of your team mates who have done us proud. moreover, pjc canoeing has never been good. it doesn't mean we can never do good in the nationals. just last year, we've got a bronze in K1-500m, which is a stepping stone for us. this year we've been doing rather well, definitely getting much more medals back than before. from round ubin marathon to national kayak marathon to national junior champs. therefore, there's a need to do even better than the previous races.

so what is achievement?
achievement: something accomplished successfully, especially by means of exertion, skill, practice, or perseverance.

i believe it takes more than trainings in order to achieve. you need the never-failing confidence, the undying determination and the everlasting motivation and there're so many more factors to it.

motivation, the thing that pushes us on and on, keeps our goals in place in our heads. be it the pursuits of achieving your goals in your career, academics, sport/games, or the arts, we all need motivation. it comes in many forms, it can be the spirit that lives in your team or it can be that passion burning in your heart.

extrinsic motivation is when i am motivated by external factors, as opposed to the internal drivers of intrinsic motivation. extrinsic motivation drives me to do things for tangible rewards or pressures, rather than for the passion for it.

i guess the J1s have been training with that extrinsic factors - us, the seniors. we've been forcing, pushing them too much that they only move when they're push. i've always believed in self-motivation and self-discipline, and i've been telling them like how many million times. seriously don't know how to change their mindset. it is really up to ourselves to change our minds.

there is a paradox of intrinsic and extrinsic motivation. intrinsic motivation is far stronger a motivator than extrinsic motivation, yet external motivation can easily act to displace intrinsic motivation.

that is when overjustification effect comes in. you try to survive the trainings you've been given due to pressures. you start to attribute yourself to a conspicuous extrinsic motivator than to intrinsic reasons. then you forget your REAL motivation, your real purpose which comes from within.

SO, please minimize the extrinsics, reflect and remind yourself of your personal goals. please be truthful and faithful, train hard and bring glory to the team!

2006-05-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

hello all. i'm now feeling a little more lethargic and shagged than yesterday. my lower back is aching and hurts like hell when i bend down. so today there's only fucko and me cuz the rest had sth on, leo had tuition in the morning then irene and meng were asked to do an experiment with jeremy at NUS.

today's programme was slightly better than yesterday's, cause we had the luxury of a longer rest time between each set. so during the sets i focused on my momentum/rhythmn and i think it is much better compared to yesterday. still gotta polish that up cause i still feel shaky at high speed and i tend to lose focus+momentum+proper strokes when i'm tired. finished our 15 sets by 0905, then we took a 30min break before doing K2.

i LOVE sunday training cause it's so efficient. bloody hell, yesterday's training ended so late, i reach home at 1715 and slept till 2000. that's a full day gone. gotta think of a way to make SAT training shorter at least.

time flies. one more week to GP paper then JUNE break. kao, it's like 7 weeks to nationals. i (really really really really really) x 10^infinity wanna get a gold medal this time round. JUNE will be HELL for all hohoho. shan't reveal the programmes here.

my skin is getting better now. still got rashes though. hahaha, and they said i was HIV positive during the standard chartered sex talk last friday. i am suspecting that as well, hahaha. i'm not allergic to any food or anything then suddenly i get rashes out of nothing. moreover now i got sores all over. haha no la, they're training-induced.

ohohoh, there's push programme tommorrow for gym. good game lah. i feel like a robot at low batt now. as what i always tell my team mates: please call the ambulance when i faint. that's all for today, rest well take care.

give me your strength

2006-05-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

argh, i'm totally shagged out. my body really punkcik already. don't know why but i can feel there's a parachute attached to me when i'm running (like Gatorade's ad).

yesterday's gym programme made every muscles (lats, traps, biceps, obliques, forearms) ache like hell today. we had chee siong, melvin and stanley to join us for training. hahaha, and that chee siong gave million of excuses not to come initially. he actually had to do P.E that morning but he told mr kwok that he would be training with us so that he could play captain's ball with the class. basket chee siong.

so today's programme was like 10 sets. felt my obliques burning already while doing warm-up, can you imagine?! my boat was moving like a snail. after sprints took the j1 guys for run and statics then after that hit the water again to babysit them. leo and i rowed around in a T2. ahahhaha, it was hell and i know it will never be an event for me.

it's been almost a year since i touch a T2. still remember me and leonard always chiong to solo T2 cause we always cap in T1. halfway through, leonard left for tuition then i went back on K1. THANKS!! hahahha.

this 2006 batch of ours: broke a K1 few weeks ago, cracked NUS T2 seat, and today, made a hole in HCI's K2. i am speechless and i didn't have much reaction when mr ang told me. guess i'm kind of immuned to such things already. don't know what to do to them also. wonder how's the team gonna be like after we leave. choosing of exco will be on the coming monday 22 may. again, the 8 nominees are: samuel, zixiong, alfred, alvin, soo hui, dorcas, xiaoting and huimin. so hard to pick.

sidetrack abit, the pioneer rugby won the plate champion for nationals. that's great. congratulations! best achievement in pj history for rugby. so now, we're the only sport left. we are gonna bring some medals back for sure. train hard everyone!

wah i'm actually feeling tired after typing so much. guess that's all for today. i need to recover for tommorrow's training. arghhhhh, but it's impossible...

2006-05-07T13:46:00.001+08:00

just got home from training. recently the programmes are abit siao. ytd's prog was 10x 4min sprint 2min rest. today's 15x 2min sprint 2min rest, makes u shag like hell for the rest of the day. other than that, i love sunday's training -> short and sweet.

my health is damn bad nowadays. got all kind of shit on me. first had fever on wed, then flu, sorethroat, cough, blocked nose, blablabla. the flu nearly got me killed today. can't breathe properly. i was still panting when i stopped for rest on my 14th set in the morning. wa kao, thought my lungs will punkcik (punctured). really couldn't suck in air momentarily.

all of pj sports are out already except for rugby. very very bad this year. last year we had netball, hockey(girls), volleyball(boys) 4th leh, if i'm not wrong la. oh and the rugby team will be fighting for plate gold/silver, which is 5th/6th placing and they are most likely to get it.

the only hope is canoeing i guess. nationals will be in july. hopefully we can bring some medals back. unlike the rest, canoeing is an endurance sport. which means its individual. your chance of smelling the top 3 places may be crushed in like 2min+ for the 500m, or 4min+ for 1000m. for the top 6 placings will have points which goes like this:
1st - 7
2nd - 5
3rd - 4
4th - 3
5th - 2
6th - 1

yeah and the team medals will obviously go to the school with the highest points. NJ gets 1st every year. i foresee that this year will be exciting, some POWERhouses are not as power as before, other jcs like MJ getting stronger. shall not comment about our team. no free meal here!

we must train hard and harder to get that standard. no more rubbish. like what our muscleman coach said: train hard, race easy.

which is damn true la.

whenever i'm rowing, i get stressed when i see other teams' juniors faster, more balanced, and the scariest- x100 more focused/passionate. yeah and ours always looking scared, SHAGGED-and-slow, slack, super unmotivated, and the list goes. and i'm generalising because the number of them who really pia like siao is insignificant.

i don't know how to change the way they're thinking right now. they fail to see the competitiveness in this sport. perhaps that is their definition of training hard.

they ONLY train on mon/wed/sat and some who comes for sun training. we train almost everyday.

and you want to win in JULY's nationals?

some questions to ask yourselves:
do you think you have trained as much as the person who had/will get first?
do you think you have trained as HARD as him/her/himher/it?

if its none of the above, pls ask yourself: do you think you are that god damn talented?

so how do you win someone who trains harder than you, and most probably longer than you (1 year)? break his arms?

er, but it is possible to get something. please don't think its not. if you are extremely focused, get your techniques, get crazy and train super hard, with a little bit of talent and luck, you might get a medal. some people did that before, if he can, you can.

going out sooooon so i think i'll end here. sigh. tommorow got school. monday blues.